See? I said in my last post that our ideas come to fruition.
So while orgasm denial has been an absolute pleasure for me and I get off on the control, it has some down sides – like loss of stamina during PIV sex. Mr. J can hit the right spots during sex, but often leaves me begging for more, and more, and more…I can’t get enough and he can’t keep up with me. For this reason, and this reason alone, I need to cuckold him.
The idea of someone else being able to give me pleasure, and my loving husband watching, has become an enticing solution to my problem. It also means that we get to participate in this journey together, something that is important to both of us. My goal is sexual satisfaction, not to find a new relationship to replace ours.
As pragmatic people, we have talked about how this will work, our boundaries, our self imposed rules, and the logistics of a bull scenario. Details such as location, use of cuckold humiliation, timing, etc. have not escaped our periphery and we have made plans accordingly – including the setting up of a guest room for such events.
There are also fears of the unknown through this process – how will this really work? What happens if one party develops feelings for the other? Will I be able to go through with it or is the fantasy better than the reality? How will Mr. J react when I am with another man? But despite there being fears, the benefits appear to be worth the risk. Stay tuned, the journey is well underway.